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BPD Support Thread
- Thread starter Aurelia
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Because the truth is, I keep reaching out to friends, and they keep ignoring me. But when I'm drunk and happy and fun, that's when they all want to talk. When I'm sober, they just ignore me. They talk when it's convenient for them, because I'm an afterthought, I'm not important at all. People contact me out of the blue after years, after just leaving, because they want something from me. They pretend to be my friend while they block and delete me. They overstep my boundaries and treat me like garbage. And I'm supposed to find worth in all that, my own worth? Based on how others treat me, I have none. I wanted everyone to know why it's so difficult for me to just stop drinking. Why would I when reality is worse?
I know exactly how you feel when that happens. It's just a pisstake when they contact you after fuck knows how long just so they can tap you up for something. Apart from the stock response, "phack off" at times I've told them, "sorry no can do, as the word c#nt was removed from my forehead ages ago."
So true. It can be amazing how self absorbed they can be. Suprised they don't get sucked up their own arseholes. Holding a convo with them can border on the surreal. No matter what you say, they just to prattle on regardless along their own self centred orbit completely oblivious to what may be happening outside their introspective bubble.
Confronted with such situations, that's normally the queue for me to switch off and start searching for distractions to entertain myself.
Confronted with such situations, that's normally the queue for me to switch off and start searching for distractions to entertain myself.
Exactly, there's been times where I've tried to test out their attentiveness by either dropping a revelationary bomb or just dropping some randomly surreal fucked up shit into the conversation. Not a flicker.
So yes, tuning out is the best course of action. On one occasion though, I tuned out by putting the phone on the table, then walking off to take a dump. When I came back, the fucker was still chattering away.
So yes, tuning out is the best course of action. On one occasion though, I tuned out by putting the phone on the table, then walking off to take a dump. When I came back, the fucker was still chattering away.
Lol I think I chose the wrong time to take out the garbage and check the mail. I usually do it late at night because there's not really anyone around. I walked past one of my neighbor's apartments, and I heard something...I was thinking maybe it was a cry of pain. But it was going on more than that...at least if she's gonna do that, she can do it in her room.
And that's enough secondhand embarrassment for one lifetime.
And that's enough secondhand embarrassment for one lifetime.
