I never feel any kind of happiness anymore. I also feel like a zombie. I sit around the house and all I do is stare at things and smoke cigarettes. I used to really enjoy my music and my house is filled with stereo equipment, but I don't enjoy it anymore so everything just sits. Even when something good happens and I should be glad about it, I find that I'm not. I just don't know what to do anymore, but don't see how I can go on living this way. Though I'm depressed, I don't think that depression is my main problem. I've been on several antidepressants and none of them phased me. I'm severely confused and the whole world feels different to me and I hate it. My mind is always thinking about other people and how I'm the same as everyone else. It's overwhelming.