I have been struggling with feeling more depressed lately. Just want to stay in bed and be asleep all day. Just haven't been feeling that motivated lately. I also came close to "method" on Monday. I really don't know why I've been feeling like this lately. Just don't care about life as much. All I can think of that changed, is an abuse memory that is surfacing again. Last time I was able to push it away but this time I can't seem to. It is leaving me feeling ashamed and embarrassed of how my body felt. So ashamed that I would rather die than talk about it in real life.