Hello i'm new here and i am a bit scared to post here but here it goes i am 25 years old and have been living as a hikikomori for about 2 years now for those who don't know hikikomori is a social condition in which the affected individual isolates themselves from society at home in their room for a period exceeding six months. The only time i actually leave the house is at night to get some food to eat because i don't want to be seen by other people i have been bullied abused and picked on my whole life and my upbringing definitely had a part in many of the contributing factors that made me the way i am today. I struggle with self loathing and suicidal thoughts and when i sit in my room and stair at the wall sometimes i question the meaning of life please don't judge me i probably will not post here much because it is very hard for someone like me to open up to other people because i have trust issues with others.
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Hi there, there is no need to be scared to talk here, we are very friendly 
I know exactly what a hikikomori is, that's what drew my attention to this thread.
How do I know that Japanese term? I was housebound (completely and entirely) for 5 years from early teen to late teen, I have clinical anxiety among other illnesses. Please listen to me, I know how bad it is and I understand how you must be feeling but it CAN change. I felt like a freak and i'm sure many people where i live called me a freak too, i was extremely embarrassed about it but looking back there was nothing to be embarrassed about and I learned I was not a freak, every single individual is unique. I was bullied all my school life and that was a major factor contributing to why I refused to go outdoors.
Please listen to me, suicide is NOT the answer. Can you try and get online therapy? Who do you live with? I care about what happens to you even though I don't know you from Adam.
Take care and keep talking to us, we're here to help and support you, suicide is not an option, nope, not allowed.
I know exactly what a hikikomori is, that's what drew my attention to this thread.
How do I know that Japanese term? I was housebound (completely and entirely) for 5 years from early teen to late teen, I have clinical anxiety among other illnesses. Please listen to me, I know how bad it is and I understand how you must be feeling but it CAN change. I felt like a freak and i'm sure many people where i live called me a freak too, i was extremely embarrassed about it but looking back there was nothing to be embarrassed about and I learned I was not a freak, every single individual is unique. I was bullied all my school life and that was a major factor contributing to why I refused to go outdoors.
Please listen to me, suicide is NOT the answer. Can you try and get online therapy? Who do you live with? I care about what happens to you even though I don't know you from Adam.
Take care and keep talking to us, we're here to help and support you, suicide is not an option, nope, not allowed.
Welcome! First, no one here is judged by what they're going through. Second, you just may find others on here experiencing the same as you. Though it may not be the same condition, they may have the same issues. Since you already know your condition, I'm assuming you been or have counseling? No matter, we just ask everyone that question. I encourage you to read through the forum, get involved with any threads. There's even chat available. Hope to see you around. And, welcome aboard!
Hi there, there is no need to be scared to talk here, we are very friendly
I know exactly what a hikikomori is, that's what drew my attention to this thread.
How do I know that Japanese term? I was housebound (completely and entirely) for 5 years from early teen to late teen, I have clinical anxiety among other illnesses. Please listen to me, I know how bad it is and I understand how you must be feeling but it CAN change. I felt like a freak and i'm sure many people where i live called me a freak too, i was extremely embarrassed about it but looking back there was nothing to be embarrassed about and I learned I was not a freak, every single individual is unique. I was bullied all my school life and that was a major factor contributing to why I refused to go outdoors.
Please listen to me, suicide is NOT the answer. Can you try and get online therapy? Who do you live with? I care about what happens to you even though I don't know you from Adam.
Take care and keep talking to us, we're here to help and support you, suicide is not an option, nope, not allowed.
I know exactly what a hikikomori is, that's what drew my attention to this thread.
How do I know that Japanese term? I was housebound (completely and entirely) for 5 years from early teen to late teen, I have clinical anxiety among other illnesses. Please listen to me, I know how bad it is and I understand how you must be feeling but it CAN change. I felt like a freak and i'm sure many people where i live called me a freak too, i was extremely embarrassed about it but looking back there was nothing to be embarrassed about and I learned I was not a freak, every single individual is unique. I was bullied all my school life and that was a major factor contributing to why I refused to go outdoors.
Please listen to me, suicide is NOT the answer. Can you try and get online therapy? Who do you live with? I care about what happens to you even though I don't know you from Adam.
Take care and keep talking to us, we're here to help and support you, suicide is not an option, nope, not allowed.
Hi there, yeah maybe that therapist was unsuitable for you, him asking ''is that how you want to live your life'' is arrogant because of course its not how you want to live your life, maybe he didn't have any experience with this issue, as they say, ''you can't teach an old dog new tricks''. I would try and get back into therapy if I were you, it saved me from myself, a blessing. The therapist was highly skilled and very kind, I hope you find a better one this time round. We are here for you too no matter what and no one will judge you at all. That doesn't happen here
hi and welcome i to am pretty new here compared to many allso if there is one thing i can tell you about SF no one will judge you here no one is better than anyone else here this is just a fantasic collection of humans from all over the world that ended up finding SF for thier own reasons just like you and me
everyone and this includes me only will listen -read your words and do our best to understand care and show you that your not alone do not ever feel alone when your here at SF
i went thru a period in my life of self seclusion allso
please go as slow as you want but allso take your hat coat and shoes off realx have a look arond get comfortable and when you feel like it feel free to comment make a new thread or simply put a like to something you read that
i for one hope you stick around my new SF friend
everyone and this includes me only will listen -read your words and do our best to understand care and show you that your not alone do not ever feel alone when your here at SF
i went thru a period in my life of self seclusion allso
please go as slow as you want but allso take your hat coat and shoes off realx have a look arond get comfortable and when you feel like it feel free to comment make a new thread or simply put a like to something you read that
i for one hope you stick around my new SF friend
and since my life is mainly out of my control i just quite possibly might end up like you it iwill be somewhat government controlled if not 100%
wether the last part for me is the same only time will tell but if it does i sure hope it is the same one your in now so we could be real life friends allso
(PS: )i find or think of the people hereat SF as real life friends thats how much they care and i care about them
wether the last part for me is the same only time will tell but if it does i sure hope it is the same one your in now so we could be real life friends allso
(PS: )i find or think of the people hereat SF as real life friends thats how much they care and i care about them
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as we talked about before there are bad sites on the net I've been to them SF is not one of those. you have to have faith in the people here, go to different threads like jims café which opens every day. you will be able to find real friends here because we understand pain. I found some great friends here that I value more than irl friends because I know they really care. you can have the same but people have to see you so try to post nobody will judge you. mike 
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