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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Your sanity is fine its the other person's sanity that is in question. Is it going to the higher upside cause of the argument or what the argument was bout? I hope everything works out. What does that mean " black is actually red" if you don't mind me asking. I really hope it works out for you. 
Hope you are doing OK @Lostman85
Thanks @AvidFan . I hope your day/evening gives you a break in the pressure &/or other stuff life throws at you. It seems to be the norm, that things almost magnet themselves to me, so they can contribute to kick off my anxiety. I'm reminding myself they're mostly thoughts. Short-lived. Then again, I wouldn't want to get caught under an ephemeral waterfall either.
Sad. So many at my church are old and having health crises. A 92 year old is now in a wheel chair. Osteoporosis has destroyed her back. Pain is a constant companion. A 90 year old fell and cracked her hip. Had surgery today. Hopefully it will heal well. Her husband already suffers from anxiety.
So all you young pups, try and enjoy life before the body falls apart.
So all you young pups, try and enjoy life before the body falls apart.
I'm realizing now the helplessness and nothingness and lack of qualification and too-late-ness that is coming, and will worsen me. The kind that I see and hear 40-year-olds tout all-the-time.
It will be slower and harmer than the inadequacy and pain I feel now and so far. I don't need this!
I am ashamed, angry, and afraid in advance. I hate that I'll become such a normal, petty pessimist. And I hate the distance it will create between me and what I'm reaching and gripping for.
And I hate, further and further, the pressure on me to keep living when I've wasted everything and there's supposedly only worse from here.
It will be slower and harmer than the inadequacy and pain I feel now and so far. I don't need this!
I am ashamed, angry, and afraid in advance. I hate that I'll become such a normal, petty pessimist. And I hate the distance it will create between me and what I'm reaching and gripping for.
And I hate, further and further, the pressure on me to keep living when I've wasted everything and there's supposedly only worse from here.
I will get better as long as you. I know it feels like there ain't no way its gonna better but time will tell. You have to fight and you will succeed cause I believe we you can do it. I'm 40 myself I understand what your saying. You have alot people here to see succeed and we know you can. So keep venting until you feel better a good things will come. Stay strong and positive. Try and enjoy the night.
frustrated.
I mine my memories, but I still can't get a clear answer on whether or not things I worry and am disgusted about went in a way that, if so, I can't forgive myself for.
It's as if my mind is guilty and it deliberately keeps me from getting the explicit memory as a self-preservation measure. Yet truth should prevail. And in the unlikely event I can forgive myself, I hold on for that possibility; my family insists my killing myself would hurt them very much.
So I'm frustrated.
I mine my memories, but I still can't get a clear answer on whether or not things I worry and am disgusted about went in a way that, if so, I can't forgive myself for.
It's as if my mind is guilty and it deliberately keeps me from getting the explicit memory as a self-preservation measure. Yet truth should prevail. And in the unlikely event I can forgive myself, I hold on for that possibility; my family insists my killing myself would hurt them very much.
So I'm frustrated.
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They put me on Abilify and didn't give me a choice. And because of this, I gained weight. Was it too little a thing that you people forced medication on me that I didn't want? This is upsetting me to a point that I can't even describe. I considered taking down all the mirrors and/or breaking them.
I tried to control myself, and couldn't. Tried to stop eating, and couldn't. Tried to fast, and couldn't. The cravings were too intense.
So I came up with a solution. I threw away everything edible I had in my fridge, and today is trash day, so I can't change my mind. Problem solved.
I tried to control myself, and couldn't. Tried to stop eating, and couldn't. Tried to fast, and couldn't. The cravings were too intense.
So I came up with a solution. I threw away everything edible I had in my fridge, and today is trash day, so I can't change my mind. Problem solved.
That's not life gaslighting you, it's an organization with some less than healthy people making it up. I know it's hard to see this when it's happening, because I frequently question my sanity, especially when a peer disagrees with me. Over time, though, I have learned that the person most confident in their own opinion, is also the most likely to be factually wrong, and/or unaware of their own logical missteps in forming that opinion. I guess that's similar to the Dunning-Kruger effect but on the farther side. The more expert we get, the more aware we are that we don't have any business proclaiming anything that we cannot back up with citations if appropriate.
By the same token, the loudest, most self assured voice in the room is almost always the least informed and the least effective at whatever skill they are claiming. I submit as a case study and a supreme example of this phenomenon, a certain political figure, who need not be named because being certain and wrong at the same time is this figure's trademark. There are less severe examples in my own history.
I also know that higher ups are more sensitive to political manipulation (aka ego-stroking or making them look good to their superiors) than to technical expertise. I do not doubt your assessment that they will fail as decent arbiters of the truth of the matter, however I disagree that you should doubt yourself as a result of those idiots. It's not your problem, it's just organizational dysfunction. IMHO, of course!
By the same token, the loudest, most self assured voice in the room is almost always the least informed and the least effective at whatever skill they are claiming. I submit as a case study and a supreme example of this phenomenon, a certain political figure, who need not be named because being certain and wrong at the same time is this figure's trademark. There are less severe examples in my own history.
I also know that higher ups are more sensitive to political manipulation (aka ego-stroking or making them look good to their superiors) than to technical expertise. I do not doubt your assessment that they will fail as decent arbiters of the truth of the matter, however I disagree that you should doubt yourself as a result of those idiots. It's not your problem, it's just organizational dysfunction. IMHO, of course!
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