How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Windhover]

Adding my empathy to the others' posts here for you @Lane.

Srending a very quiet and serious note of flexible strength, which may be hidden at times but is there within you. We support you from here on our virtual stomping grounds.

 

[Windhover]

Get out of the past, stop dreading the future, and worry about now

A bit bleak. I'm holding on while having to make decisions and speak about necessary developments in things.

 

[AvidFan]

I'm doing OK for a change, nothing bothering me at this moment in time. I got through a very short commuting week and am now either off or WFH until Monday 😄

 

[Here Then Gone]

Ignored

 

[ClassicsFan]

Frustrated. I'm trying to post on another site that I belong to, but I keep getting a Connection timed out message.

 

[SillyOldBear]

A bit bleak. I'm holding on while having to make decisions and speak about necessary developments in things.

Hope things improve for you soon.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Rather lousy actually. Been fighting with the bank, with insurance company, with computer all while in too much pain. Life really does suck.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m quite deflated.

I did a volunteer shift, so I got my horsey fix, lol. I feel calmer from that. I also introduced myself to a horse that I hadn’t met yet. He is much younger than the others and so he’s more outgoing.

Since then, though my intrusive thoughts have been taking up so much energy that I am walking in a fog, or at least that’s how it feels. I kind of “surfing” them, as in noticing their presence and still staying on top of them. This way it’s harder for them to drag me down.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Ignored

I see you.
I feel so alone when that happens. We can listen if you want to share more.

 

[may71]

Ignored

I'm sorry you feel that way. I think it can be easy to feel that way here sometimes. SF is like many people in the water after a ship wreck at night, crying out for help. The help is there, but you have to stay afloat long enough and keep calling out until someone can come for you.

 

[may71]

I feel trapped in my situation and dont see a way out of it.

I'm sorry you're going through this Lane. You're welcome to say more about what's going on if you'd like to.

 

[AvidFan]

Ignored

Sorry to hear this. Hope you do not feel ignored here. We are here for you!

 

[AvidFan]

I'm doing OK still. My tooth was in agony last night due to the stress clenching over past weeks, but DIY mouthguard is helping with the night time stuff - during the day am trying to be disciplined and not keep probing to see "does it still hurt?". Pain is down today. I might have a issue with how teeth are interacting (a high point) which is only just coming to light. I can be OCD about my teeth - I went to a checkup last year and said it feels like I've lost some bits off teeth since last time (my tongue became completely convinced I could feel sharp jagged bits everywhere) - he said it all looks fine. Meanwhile I've had this weird sensation when I bite, which is on the same tooth, so could be adding pressure to even mild clenching and traumatizing the tooth. Plan to get the pain down then book another dentist visit.

 

[DarkNightshade]

Well, still very much in between. I'm toying with dark thoughts in my head sometimes, but this is not disruptive. Fortunately, I am not really depressed, mostly because one of my most crippling symptoms is usually psychomotor retardation, which I do not suffer from at the moment. So, I can keep myself busy with work and hobbies without issues, even though motivation is somewhat low.

 

[Lane]

I'm doing OK for a change, nothing bothering me at this moment in time. I got through a very short commuting week and am now either off or WFH until Monday 😄

enjoy your long weekend Avid. You deserve a break.

 

[Lane]

I’m quite deflated.

I did a volunteer shift, so I got my horsey fix, lol. I feel calmer from that. I also introduced myself to a horse that I hadn’t met yet. He is much younger than the others and so he’s more outgoing.

Since then, though my intrusive thoughts have been taking up so much energy that I am walking in a fog, or at least that’s how it feels. I kind of “surfing” them, as in noticing their presence and still staying on top of them. This way it’s harder for them to drag me down.

Wishing you mainly positive thoughts LumberJack. I admire how you navigate your feelings. Sometimes i tend to ignore my feelings and issues until they really surface. Hope you have a decent day

 

[Lane]

Rather lousy actually. Been fighting with the bank, with insurance company, with computer all while in too much pain. Life really does suck.

I hope you got it all sorted out SillyOldBear. I agree life can suck at times, its the little miments that count for me.

 

[JanisSPK]

Yes. Little moments of joy or peace or acceptance are so necessary.

And then there is also feeling feelings. Having them and being ok with whatever is being felt. I listen to Good directives from so many knowledgeable people I tune into and it's so blasted difficult at times not to shut down. Which of course I do still. But I'm trying like hell to feel what I feel....it's what I'm trying to follow with now and check in at all kinds of points in the day like "Ok Janis, so how are you feeling at this very moment?".....and doing this several times a day. I'm persevering and it can be annoying and I'm just doing it anyway.....it's supposed to have positive results so I'm giving it a shot.

 

[iloverachel]

for anyone who needs one

 

[AvidFan]

Fucking fed up. Been having a good day. The UTI crap is finally over after they did the sensible thing and gave me 2 weeks of antibiotics. Cleared the infection.

Then today I get a little brown envelope from urology hospital specialist saying they want to do x, y and z tests on me. The infection is fixed. I don't want these investigations. They did this with my hip and now I am labelled as having arthritis when I'm walking 70,000 steps a week. Fuck knows what they will find but if they go looking they will find something. I got out of the fucking crappy prostate cancer test but this walks me right back into that area. Oh, you are now much better and everything is working fine? We'd better do all these tests then. No wonder the NHS is such a fucking disaster.

I'd stopped clenching my teeth from stress today. Now I'm back in fucking agony as the stress just lowered my pain threshold to zero.