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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Of course I got a response from the health care organization to my complaint about the mis-diagnosis saying they would have eventually found out that the pain I had all year. Yeah right. After the hip operation they would know it wasn't the source of pain.
My sister who is a nurse told me to let it go. I know I should but I think I need a new health care organization. I have been with this one for over 40 years but all I am is a number and now a complainer. The trouble is that the first organization's urgent care is quick to see patients. The other organizations use the Emergency Room as their urgent care office and one can wait in the ER for hours to be seen.
Oh well I didn't think the office would respond at all.
My sister who is a nurse told me to let it go. I know I should but I think I need a new health care organization. I have been with this one for over 40 years but all I am is a number and now a complainer. The trouble is that the first organization's urgent care is quick to see patients. The other organizations use the Emergency Room as their urgent care office and one can wait in the ER for hours to be seen.
Oh well I didn't think the office would respond at all.
I'm in bed. Got blood test tomorrow. At least I don't have to have the dodgy PSA test. I don't trust them and my biggest fear is not dying, it's the horrible side effects of being treated for something that would never have caused me any bother. Anyway had a good day today until I got the letter that brought all my medical trauma flooding back.
Goodnight dear SF friends.
Goodnight dear SF friends.
Honestly I feel crappy. I pulled another all-nighter last night by way of putting off taking my nighttime meds for “just until I get this one thing done.” The problem is that “one more thing” turns into 3 things and a search operation besides. That’s not the main part though. I am screwing with my mental and physical health with my crappy sleep hygiene.
Thank you @Windhover yeah I managed to drift back off by telling myself I would check SF again in 20 minutes... Funny how taking the mind off sleep makes the sleep easier to happen (but it never does that if I deliberately try to take my mind off it - in this case it just happened!) Hope you are OK ❤️
I'm sorry @Windhover
I am OK. After night of agony with the tooth I settled back to doze and got up for my blood test. Walked a brisk 4000 steps to surgery and back with no pain at all, and helped someone through the surgery door who was struggling. Got the day now, I suppose I had better do some work to pay for all the inevitable things I will have to pay for in due course... Stretches and coffee first.
Today was a good day. I was really focused on really challenging tasks at work, which is something I need. I also think that getting back to a daily meditation practice helps me tremendously, even though I started doing it again as a preventative way of combating future episodes. My therapist agrees with this practice, and she emphasized that using mindfulness to watch thoughts as they come and go is a very good way of dealing with ruminations, should they arise. Of course, I told her I already tried and that the exercise is very difficult, but I'm practicing it more frequently now.
this is all, like, just my opinion:
Really any calming practice is preventative rather than curative. Things like mindfulness and deep breathing are only accessible in a crisis if they are practiced consistently when no emotional alarm is present. It’s kind of like the saying that, “he who sweats most in peacetime bleeds least in combat.”
Exercise is difficult by definition. It seems to be how humans get better at skills and increase physical strength. You push past discomfort to gradually increase your exertion and then the range of comfort increases as a result of adaptations occurring between exercises.
We are dealing with mental illness. Some things that would be trivial to a normie are nearly impossible for us. There is no universal series of steps that can treat mental illness because there are different underlying causes, and if treating symptoms without addressing the causes is a recipe for constant relapse (which happens to be a good business model for people getting paid for treatment rather than results).
I feel irritated when providers universally recommend mindfulness as if it were an emotional bandage. It is powerful - and any effective tool can also be powerfully harmful when applied wrongly. We don’t send patients home with scalpels following a cancer diagnosis, despite the fact that scalpels have been proven to be effective at removing tumors. HTH, I just get a little cranky when providers who have no meditation practice of their own turn around and suggest it to patients without requiring a qualified meditation instructor. Not saying your therapist doesn’t meditate, but it sounds like she doesn’t if she just says it’s a good idea after you brought it up.
It’s kind of like the equivalent of someone who has been victimized repeatedly to go home and watch self defense tutorials on YouTube as opposed to getting instruction and feedback from a qualified teacher.
Really any calming practice is preventative rather than curative. Things like mindfulness and deep breathing are only accessible in a crisis if they are practiced consistently when no emotional alarm is present. It’s kind of like the saying that, “he who sweats most in peacetime bleeds least in combat.”
Exercise is difficult by definition. It seems to be how humans get better at skills and increase physical strength. You push past discomfort to gradually increase your exertion and then the range of comfort increases as a result of adaptations occurring between exercises.
We are dealing with mental illness. Some things that would be trivial to a normie are nearly impossible for us. There is no universal series of steps that can treat mental illness because there are different underlying causes, and if treating symptoms without addressing the causes is a recipe for constant relapse (which happens to be a good business model for people getting paid for treatment rather than results).
I feel irritated when providers universally recommend mindfulness as if it were an emotional bandage. It is powerful - and any effective tool can also be powerfully harmful when applied wrongly. We don’t send patients home with scalpels following a cancer diagnosis, despite the fact that scalpels have been proven to be effective at removing tumors. HTH, I just get a little cranky when providers who have no meditation practice of their own turn around and suggest it to patients without requiring a qualified meditation instructor. Not saying your therapist doesn’t meditate, but it sounds like she doesn’t if she just says it’s a good idea after you brought it up.
It’s kind of like the equivalent of someone who has been victimized repeatedly to go home and watch self defense tutorials on YouTube as opposed to getting instruction and feedback from a qualified teacher.
Yes. This is my experience at times in the past as you know from my sharings over the years and now currently.
I don’t assume to say I know your exact experience but I have compassion and empathy. For you. And for myself as well. Living is not easy and I’m glad to hear you say that you are mostly alright
I don’t assume to say I know your exact experience but I have compassion and empathy. For you. And for myself as well. Living is not easy and I’m glad to hear you say that you are mostly alright