I'm kind of OK in this moment. I had back to back video calls all day, I can't even remember the first two, I was completely mentally gone and very nearly had to stop the calls because I couldn't keep awake and couldn't concentrate. Then later in the day, I did 2 more, finishing at 8.15pm, and feel reasonable, almost like my normal self. I wish I could just feel OK without the awful crashes, I never know how I'm going to feel morning to afternoon to evening let alone day to day, one minute exhausted, the next feeling OK, one minute feeling like I can't stay awake for another minute, then spending all night unable to sleep for a minute. Guess I feel all over the place really. I survived another day.