wish I could get to the thing that I'm avoiding. The intrusive thoughts about how awful life is and it would be better if I took my exit immediately, are making it so that I'm productive for about 5 min out of every hour. I've been up for approaching 3 hrs and I've only got the coffee made. The coffee is the first thing in my routine, as it is a pre-requisite for anything else, lol. Going to do my silent meditation practice and see how I feel after that. If the same as now, then will try a nap, but I need to get the car washed today as there is so much gunk on it that I'm worried about it scratching the paint if I leave it stuck on there.
