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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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My brain does this and refuses to make sense in other ways at times.
I'm sorry you're feeling so bad Lostman.
I don't think you've hurt me or anyone else here by talking to us. I also think you haven't ruined other people's lives.
You're not useless. You have inherent worth as a human being, and you're also a better person than you give yourself credit for being.
I think if I got to know you better, I'd like you even more than I do now
Sending hugs if you would like hugs
I don't think you've hurt me or anyone else here by talking to us. I also think you haven't ruined other people's lives.
You're not useless. You have inherent worth as a human being, and you're also a better person than you give yourself credit for being.
I think if I got to know you better, I'd like you even more than I do now
Sending hugs if you would like hugs
I'm sorry you're feeling so bad Lostman.
I don't think you've hurt me or anyone else here by talking to us. I also think you haven't ruined other people's lives.
You're not useless. You have inherent worth as a human being, and you're also a better person than you give yourself credit for being.
I think if I got to know you better, I'd like you even more than I do now
Sending hugs if you would like hugs
I don't think you've hurt me or anyone else here by talking to us. I also think you haven't ruined other people's lives.
You're not useless. You have inherent worth as a human being, and you're also a better person than you give yourself credit for being.
I think if I got to know you better, I'd like you even more than I do now
Sending hugs if you would like hugs
I feel tense. Something is bothering me. I'm walling it off. There's an enormous amount of anger and confusion regarding something from a very, very long time ago. I can't even look at it right now. I can keep things copacetic if I just don't look in that file, but the file is there, and I know that if I were to open it, or, as is more likely in my case, I tripped and spilled it all over the place, I would not be able to keep it together.
I might explode with rage. I might break down and cry. I might go into freeze and sit in the corner hugging my knees while rocking back and forth. The worst part is that I'm more than halfway thru my life by now. WHY IN THE ACTUAL F*** is this stuff from forever ago still bothering me??? Prolly because instead of dealing with it, I keep it pushed into the corner where the light never gets in - so as to avoid it. This is where I am stuck. I can't deal with it and maintain my personal apple cart, but I also can't push it away and stop it from eating at me from the periphery, either. Two dilemmas within a larger dilemma. Fuck me - I have discovered fractal indecision.
I might explode with rage. I might break down and cry. I might go into freeze and sit in the corner hugging my knees while rocking back and forth. The worst part is that I'm more than halfway thru my life by now. WHY IN THE ACTUAL F*** is this stuff from forever ago still bothering me??? Prolly because instead of dealing with it, I keep it pushed into the corner where the light never gets in - so as to avoid it. This is where I am stuck. I can't deal with it and maintain my personal apple cart, but I also can't push it away and stop it from eating at me from the periphery, either. Two dilemmas within a larger dilemma. Fuck me - I have discovered fractal indecision.
Scared and worried cause got court today. Im so suicidal like my life is everyday. Sry if i hurt anybody its not my intention. I just everybody happy and living life to its fullest. My family is already hurt because of what I have been doing. Nothing is making me feel better. Now im going to court to lose what I got left. Im so hutt right now. I hate my life and myself. Im so horrible it hurts.
Oh no @Angie - are you are doing this alone? That is terribly difficult, I wish someone you trusted could go along. I hope for the best for your cat and you. Drive safely.
I am struggling. I've been doing better with self-care lately, but apparently not better enough. I feel physically worthless today. Like if I had an appointment I'd have to take an Uber because I am unsure if I could stay awake while driving. Tried to make coffee. I ultimately succeeded but I also had to clean up several spills along the way. It seems that my eyes don't quite process the information about where objects are located within my immediate environment. I only know where something is when I knock it over! Knowing this I have a lot of containers with lids, but JFC I wish I just wasn't this clumsy. I think at the end of the day, I should not be living alone. I'm an introvert, but that doesn't mean I don't need someone close. I'm not meant to live without intimacy. I need another human heartbeat to grow with.