i want out.

darkdaisy

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#1
i have been having severe thoughts of suicide lately. and more... even in my dreams. the one time where i think i’m at peace and think i will take a short break from reality. no. i cry myself to sleep at night. i get picked on during the day. it’s even seeped through into my dreams. my thoughts are now turning into other things and advancing.... i just can’t take it. i want out. i should be asleep right now and i am extremely tired but my intense thoughts prevent me from entering my second hell; sleep.



also i am on meds and i see a therapist regularly, so it’s not like i’m avoiding treatment and making myself worse.
 

StrangeRanger

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#2
I hate nightmares like that.... its too intense especially with such thoughts Ive definitely dealt with that throughout the years. I dont suppose a change of scenery is an option? Sometimes finding a new place helps, surrounding yourself with positive change. I have certain stuff I do to help with such dreams but ik everyones different, some people even meditate but it isnt for everyone, this is a very tough scenarioto get through but it is possible. I really hope there is something that can help for this.. keep your chin up, I have hope there is a cure for this *console
 
#3
Please help me understand your situation, I care about you. You mentioned that you get picked on during the day, what is that like and what do they say? Let me help you consider ways to make the night time less painful, even if it is minor
 
#4
i have been having severe thoughts of suicide lately. and more... even in my dreams. the one time where i think i’m at peace and think i will take a short break from reality. no. i cry myself to sleep at night. i get picked on during the day. it’s even seeped through into my dreams. my thoughts are now turning into other things and advancing.... i just can’t take it. i want out. i should be asleep right now and i am extremely tired but my intense thoughts prevent me from entering my second hell; sleep.



also i am on meds and i see a therapist regularly, so it’s not like i’m avoiding treatment and making myself worse.
being picked on is absolutely awful. so sorry to hear. definitely try and get away from that environment if its making you feel that way.
 

LostGirl22

To live would be an awfully big adventure
#5
I'm so sorry that you're going through all this. Getting picked on is just such a terrible thing. As for the nightmares, they are scary especially if they seem so vivid and real. The negative emotions translate into nightmares which haunt you especially in the day. Do you have anyone you can talk to in real life? Is there someone there who can help you deal with all this. I hope you know that the SF community will be here to try our best to help you out.
 

Petal

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#6
Hello there, can you report the bullies to a teach or a year head or counselor at your school - whoever is in authority.

You deserve better than this for yourself. I'm glad you reached out here though, you deserve more for yourself. School is hard there's no doubt in that, kids can be mean and nasty.

How long more do you have left in school? Could changing schools help do you think?

I'm sorry everything seems to be hitting you at once but SF is here to support you through this.
 

darkdaisy

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#7
Hello there, can you report the bullies to a teach or a year head or counselor at your school - whoever is in authority.

You deserve better than this for yourself. I'm glad you reached out here though, you deserve more for yourself. School is hard there's no doubt in that, kids can be mean and nasty.

How long more do you have left in school? Could changing schools help do you think?

I'm sorry everything seems to be hitting you at once but SF is here to support you through this.
oh no- it’s not students (at the moment) it’s family members. they pick on me about my skin color (i am very pale) and my back (o have scoliosis and it is very painful). in addition to that, they left me home alone today with absolutely nothing to do for about 9 and a half hours. they went and had fun while i stayed home. i asked to go with them and they said no. and i can’t drive yet and i can’t get a job yet so i was pretty alone with my thoughts all day. today was such a terrible day and made me realize that i’m not wanted.
 

darkdaisy

Public Access
#8
Hello there, can you report the bullies to a teach or a year head or counselor at your school - whoever is in authority.

You deserve better than this for yourself. I'm glad you reached out here though, you deserve more for yourself. School is hard there's no doubt in that, kids can be mean and nasty.

How long more do you have left in school? Could changing schools help do you think?

I'm sorry everything seems to be hitting you at once but SF is here to support you through this.
Please help me understand your situation, I care about you. You mentioned that you get picked on during the day, what is that like and what do they say? Let me help you consider ways to make the night time less painful, even if it is minor
my skin (i’m very pale) and my scoliosis (i am actually in really bad pain from)
 

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