I feel like I am just getting worse. I was sexually abused by my mom's ex husband while I was growing up. I did report it within the statute of limitations but it was "he said, she said" (according to law enforcement.) I wanted to establish a good life for myself out in the world. I was engaged to a woman at age 21 and she assaulted me in a sexual way with her hands and I was afraid to go to the hospital because of the stigma. I still remember how cold and empty I felt. I needed to be surrounded by love. I still do and I don't know when that will be. I kept trying to reach out. No one would see me/ date me/ touch me after these things happened and I was judged based on my story. I hope this will reach someone because I can't promise how much longer I will be around. I am in too much pain and still reach periods when I cannot speak.