I don't feel like I have long left. I don't want to die, theres lots of things I love in life - but the pain is too great for me to keep going. Every time I have even a slight problem, my immediate thought is "Well, I can just kill myself to avoid this". I'm so exhausted. Hating myself every single day and only having it get worse each time I wake up is so painful. It's eating away at my very soul. Suicide feels inevitable to me. The goods are far outweighed by the bads. I just hate everything about myself and my life far too much to continue for much longer. I feel like if things continue the way they are, I'm done for.