Hi everyone hope your doing well. I'm not today. Everyone says its ok to go through the motions of depression but I hate it. I hate living with this parasite that takes over my brain. I try my hardest to be a good hearted person to put others before myself but why is it no one would ever do what I do for them for me. I'm used by everyone I don't mind if I guess it makes them happy I just don't know what I do wrong. I'm there at a drop of a hat if you need me. I'll give you my last penny I know I shouldn't be like that. I just don't want anyone to hurt or feel how I do all the time. I try to make friends but Idk maybe they know I'm broken. I hate me and my body and just feeling like this. The meds made me worse talking to therapist don't work. It just isn't personal. Idk what to do anymore. But living in misery just isn't for me