No - you are not a hypocrite, you're in the midst of addiction and addiction to anything can make our emotions and feelings even worse and more dire, you have the chance to beat this addiction, I think what ''they say'' is true, that you first must admit your addiction and move forward from there. In my life I have been addicted to a few different things, I know how hard it is so you won't be getting any criticism from me however if you need support SF is here for you whether you want to give up alcohol tomorrow or next month.
I really feel for you, addiction is brutal and even worse when mixed in and tied with depression and other mental ailments. I think you should start a thread in the substance abuse forum there, just for this issue, that is what I did starting December and now I'm a full month off the ciggies, go for it and never look back
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