Today is Mother's Day... and I am just here, making my mother and everyone else sad.
I don't see what's the point of living. I have no future ahead of me. I couldn't love anyone and I wasn't loved by anyone (nor I will ever love/be loved). My life is meaningless and there is no point to it.
Honestly, it seems I came here to earth to make my family sad and disappointed. I wish this could end sooner rather than later.
I can relate a lot to these thoughts, and I try not to think much about it because it hurts, even if I am aware that it's just my head trying to mess me up
If you were gone here we'd all be sad, just thinking about it makes me sad. We have to be strong and to think in other things, distract ourselves, maybe by chance we find something, a purpose, while we are distracted
As marvelfan said don't put your family happiness as a goal, I don't know about your situation but first you have to put yourself before anyone. As erich fromm said, you can't love others, you can't love life, if you don't love yourself first, because you're a human being, you have life, you're alive
like any other person, and that's something wonderful. Learning how to love yourself is a super hard task to do but it is achievable, I am sure of that
What do you think of the idea of helping others in need? It doesn't have to be people, if animals make you feel more comfortable you could try helping them in a shelter or in other possible ways. Or even plants. Helping others helps a lot, to them and to yourself, it makes you feel you have a purpose in life, it makes you feel connected to the world