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I mentioned before how I couldn't tell the difference between stuff like this and a regular panic attack, in the early stages anyway. I've figured it out and y'all are gonna say "fuckin' duh" when I tell you.
It's the presence or absence of panic.
I know, right?
But here's the thing, the initial physical symptoms, the tunnel vision and the cold sweats and the weakness, are so similar that I don't even realize that my mental state is completely different.
In a panic attack, I'm overwhelmed by the feeling that something is about to go horribly wrong, then I have the physical symptoms.
With this new whatever-it-is, the physical symptoms come on, and I remain completely calm the whole time. I just immediately find a place to sit or lay down. Like, I can sit if theres an actual chair with a back and armrests, otherwise I need to lay down. I cannot support the weight of my own body at all. And the world kinda goes away for a bit. Like, literally, my hearing gets weaker and I get tunnel vision that gets narrower and narrower until I can only see what's directly in front of me, and even that's pretty blurry. And I just focus on smooth even breathing and maintaining consciousness, because I feel like if I let myself fall asleep like I kinda want to, then I might actually die. But the whole time, I'm a lot calmer and more accepting of the situation than I'd expect myself to be.
Then my strength slowly comes back, and the world comes back into focus, and I go on about my day. And usually lay down for a good long sleep session within a few hours.
It's the presence or absence of panic.
I know, right?
But here's the thing, the initial physical symptoms, the tunnel vision and the cold sweats and the weakness, are so similar that I don't even realize that my mental state is completely different.
In a panic attack, I'm overwhelmed by the feeling that something is about to go horribly wrong, then I have the physical symptoms.
With this new whatever-it-is, the physical symptoms come on, and I remain completely calm the whole time. I just immediately find a place to sit or lay down. Like, I can sit if theres an actual chair with a back and armrests, otherwise I need to lay down. I cannot support the weight of my own body at all. And the world kinda goes away for a bit. Like, literally, my hearing gets weaker and I get tunnel vision that gets narrower and narrower until I can only see what's directly in front of me, and even that's pretty blurry. And I just focus on smooth even breathing and maintaining consciousness, because I feel like if I let myself fall asleep like I kinda want to, then I might actually die. But the whole time, I'm a lot calmer and more accepting of the situation than I'd expect myself to be.
Then my strength slowly comes back, and the world comes back into focus, and I go on about my day. And usually lay down for a good long sleep session within a few hours.
Bloody hell, that must have been so frightening. Thank fuck you made it home okay and it passed.
Staying closer to home sounds like a good idea. Maybe just laps around your house for a bit eh?
And I freaking hate the fact that you have to weigh up calling an ambulance with the cost. That's just not right.
Staying closer to home sounds like a good idea. Maybe just laps around your house for a bit eh?
And I freaking hate the fact that you have to weigh up calling an ambulance with the cost. That's just not right.
Yea I would assume peoples behaviors would change with the drug epidemic and the pandemic that someone would call the cops to have it checked out nowadays narcan is being used frequently that have to restock on narcan same shift. I would have liked to think humans have gotten better.
Homeless people are the same people, we know who they are by sight. People are pretty much more dumb now in their own environment. Sad. I certainly would have noticed a guy not looking so hot maybe its my own nature to look into everyones face for my own survival if you are a threat or not being deaf and all of that jazz myself.
Am glad you are ok and back home.
Take it easy til the test.
Homeless people are the same people, we know who they are by sight. People are pretty much more dumb now in their own environment. Sad. I certainly would have noticed a guy not looking so hot maybe its my own nature to look into everyones face for my own survival if you are a threat or not being deaf and all of that jazz myself.
Am glad you are ok and back home.
Take it easy til the test.
So sad. Hearing the west is getting worse and worse with the homeless pop especially with the insane growing prices on housing! Ours is bad in some places but not as horrid as SF... we are just evicting people around here for being troublemakers or being danger to themselves and the community. Other than that the cops wont do jack regardless of your ability to pay. That is buying people time I guess before the homeless pop grows here.
Oh geez, Gonz. Are you okay? I swear, me and you are around the same age, but we both have the health problems of 80 year olds. With me, it's my Crohn's and now I'm also severely potassium and calcium deficient due to all the throwing up (and now, been eating fucking bananas like it's nobody's business). And this is all going on while I'm trying to get over a cold/flu.
