Hi everyone
first post and just feel like this is the only place I can be honest.
in short from a very complicated story, I was damaged medically and have recovered massively but now have reactions to all fragrances, glues, smoke which makes living extremely hard.
I’m mainly housebound as being around people is near impossible due to laundry, shampoos containing perfumes. It completely changed my world.
I have planned suicide before and tired a few times but always get scared, especially when I’m about to pass out. I’ve been close.
i sleep on a sofa for the past 2 years as react to the bedroom, my relationship with my partner has been destroyed by my health problems as he has to shower whenever he comes home, and change into safe clothes to help me. He loves me and supports me but I can’t ruin his life.
I have a chance at recovery if I can get into a safer environment and have been saving for my own house. But it feels impossible. I have a very up and down income as an artist but my other health problems means I can’t work to how I need to get more money and be independent.
I could move home but that would be hard. Even though my parents adopted a fragrance free life I react to coffee and that would constrain my dad.
I don’t see anyway out, any future.
it would be different if I had money to do the things I need but I don’t and I don’t want to beg or get my followers to feel pity for me.
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i just want to be honest and not feel like I’m putting others down, I can barely look after myself for. The stress. I have even tried convincing my body to die and shut down and pray so hard for me to die naturally as not to hurt my family.
obviously that’s living in a dream world but I try none the less.
it’s good to just be honest and talk about this, thanks for letting me talk.
T x
first post and just feel like this is the only place I can be honest.
in short from a very complicated story, I was damaged medically and have recovered massively but now have reactions to all fragrances, glues, smoke which makes living extremely hard.
I’m mainly housebound as being around people is near impossible due to laundry, shampoos containing perfumes. It completely changed my world.
I have planned suicide before and tired a few times but always get scared, especially when I’m about to pass out. I’ve been close.
i sleep on a sofa for the past 2 years as react to the bedroom, my relationship with my partner has been destroyed by my health problems as he has to shower whenever he comes home, and change into safe clothes to help me. He loves me and supports me but I can’t ruin his life.
I have a chance at recovery if I can get into a safer environment and have been saving for my own house. But it feels impossible. I have a very up and down income as an artist but my other health problems means I can’t work to how I need to get more money and be independent.
I could move home but that would be hard. Even though my parents adopted a fragrance free life I react to coffee and that would constrain my dad.
I don’t see anyway out, any future.
it would be different if I had money to do the things I need but I don’t and I don’t want to beg or get my followers to feel pity for me.
<Mod edit - methods>
i just want to be honest and not feel like I’m putting others down, I can barely look after myself for. The stress. I have even tried convincing my body to die and shut down and pray so hard for me to die naturally as not to hurt my family.
obviously that’s living in a dream world but I try none the less.
it’s good to just be honest and talk about this, thanks for letting me talk.
T x
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