BPD Support Thread

[Gwyrdd]

I'm freaked and don't know how to handle it.

Maybe I'm just used to it, and I'm not saying it's not scary at times, but I generally just ignore it unless I'm in a bad episode.

If the voices are fake then oh well. And if they're real I get to die and don't get blamed.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Maybe I'm just used to it, and I'm not saying it's not scary at times, but I generally just ignore it unless I'm in a bad episode.

If the voices are fake then oh well. And if they're real I get to die and don't get blamed.

Maybe that's what it wants to do to me, hurt me or something.

 

[Aurelia]

I heard someone say something like "why". Don't know if the voice was male or female. Could have been either or both.

And you're 100% sure it wasn't anything outside or an electronic device or anything like that?

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

And you're 100% sure it wasn't anything outside or an electronic device or anything like that?

Sounded like it was right in here, close to my ear I guess.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Maybe that's what it wants to do to me, hurt me or something.

Well fortunately it can't if it's a hallucination.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Well fortunately it can't if it's a hallucination.

It might convince me to do stuff though depending on what it says.

 

[Aurelia]

Sounded like it was right in here, close to my ear I guess.

I wouldn't worry too much. Perception is a hell of a thing to us humans, and a lot of shit that we think seems real, isn't actually real. So I would say as long as it doesn't happen again, try to relax. And if it does, go to a different place in the house or walk out of the house if you feel safer.

 

[Gwyrdd]

It might convince me to do stuff though depending on what it says.

Not in my experience. But then, I'm a stubborn bastard with massive authority problems who doesn't like being told what to do and will sacrifice my wellbeing to spit in the face of people who try to control me... so... yeah.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I'm going to deal with it on my own I guess. I have no other choice.

 

[Aurelia]

I'm going to deal with it on my own I guess. I have no other choice.

At this point, you have no genuine reason to be afraid. There's no evidence that anyone or anything is trying to hurt you, so don't start thinking that they are just yet.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

At this point, you have no genuine reason to be afraid. There's no evidence that anyone or anything is trying to hurt you, so don't start thinking that they are just yet.

I feel like I'm more at risk to myself than anything or anyone else is. Maybe not immediately, but still.

 

[Aurelia]

Actually, the one day at my previous job, I did convince myself that something was going on and I was going to get hurt. Still not sure how much of that I may have imagined and how much really happened, though.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Well, paranoia is one of the nine traits. So it's not surprising.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Sorry I'm not about to sound supportive at all. I took some shit and starting drinking on it like a dumbass.

On the bright side I feel better. But I'm also kinda useless at talking I think lol

 

[Aurelia]

Well, paranoia is one of the nine traits. So it's not surprising.

Yeah, considering everything I told you about my husband, it was also a real justifiable possibility. I'm just not sure if I started getting paranoid and imagining shit that wasn't there because of it or if I really heard/saw what I thought I did. But it hasn't happened since. I'm just chalking it up to a PTSD episode.

 

[Gwyrdd]

This was supposed 5o b3 a dm again lol

 

[Gwyrdd]

Yeah, considering everything I told you about my husband, it was also a real justifiable possibility. I'm just not sure if I started getting paranoid and imagining shit that wasn't there because of it or if I really heard/saw what I thought I did. But it hasn't happened since. I'm just chalking it up to a PTSD episode.

Oh yeah, I def get that. Even after Frank died, for months I was still scared he'd do something to me. Like you I'm gonna say that was MOSTLY ptsd but I'm sure bpd and cptsd didn't help

 

[Aurelia]

This was supposed 5o b3 a dm again lol

Those typos made me laugh because I can picture you trying to type in my mind right now :P

 

[Gwyrdd]

That brings up an interesting tangent actually. Have any of you heard of apgantasua?

 

[Gwyrdd]

Aphantasia*