Well, I just got triggered so bad that I finally caved and stole money from someone I actually care about for drugs...
Feel pathetic that most people would read "triggered so bad" and expect that it was some big, terrible thing. But no, I texted my bf, and he started typing, stopped, left me on read, and 20 seconds later started a game on steam. So I know he's not away from his phone. I AM in withdrawal, and the last week was really bad, and I'm sure most borderlines here WOULD understand how bad that can feel especially when you're already in a bad place. But I still feel pathetic.
At least I'll be high enough to not fucking care in about 20 minutes.