BPD Support Thread
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Well, I just got triggered so bad that I finally caved and stole money from someone I actually care about for drugs...
Feel pathetic that most people would read "triggered so bad" and expect that it was some big, terrible thing. But no, I texted my bf, and he started typing, stopped, left me on read, and 20 seconds later started a game on steam. So I know he's not away from his phone. I AM in withdrawal, and the last week was really bad, and I'm sure most borderlines here WOULD understand how bad that can feel especially when you're already in a bad place. But I still feel pathetic.
At least I'll be high enough to not fucking care in about 20 minutes.
Feel pathetic that most people would read "triggered so bad" and expect that it was some big, terrible thing. But no, I texted my bf, and he started typing, stopped, left me on read, and 20 seconds later started a game on steam. So I know he's not away from his phone. I AM in withdrawal, and the last week was really bad, and I'm sure most borderlines here WOULD understand how bad that can feel especially when you're already in a bad place. But I still feel pathetic.
At least I'll be high enough to not fucking care in about 20 minutes.
Has anyone found someone who isn't bothered by you being attached to them, but you still feel reluctant because you've been told so many times in the past that you are too much, and they are driven away by you being clingy? So it's hard to reach out, even when I know people won't be bothered to hear from me.
It does get better with time, but it can take a while, depending on the person, the severity, among other things. As far as DBT, it might not. Just because it's most recommended, doesn't make it the right recommendation. I've found it doesn't work very well in many cases. I like to look for alternative treatments, ones that aren't usually spoken of. Chances are, you won't really notice when or how it does get better, though, because the changes happen gradually.