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I'm so sorry that your memories are so present. That happens to me too, but I guess with time, they kind of faded and I can push them aside now. But I remember when they overtook my whole life. I know that the cliché advice is distraction...but it really does help. Can you get out of the house and do something to keep your mind occupied in a more positive way?