suicidal ideation

  1. ChimeraMonster

    Venting Does freedom even exist?

    I feel so overwhelmed, and my job is making me sick at this point. I hate it. But I can't do anything else, I feel like I'm too weak to handle this 9/5 workday thing. I want to be free, to be free of these burdens, to be myself, to be happy. But reality won't have it. And I will suffer like...
  2. G

    Feeling Suicial

    Hi. I don’t feel like my life is going anywhere. Therapy is good but it doesn’t help in a big way. I think my biggest problem is that I really don’t care to be alive. I don’t care if I died tomorrow. I think the time I will take my life will come soon because I don’t think there is a life that I...
  3. G

    Why I dont want to let go of suicidal thoughts

    Hi everyone. I hope today is kind to you where ever you are. I have been feeling quite burned out lately and have had suicidal thoughts. I have had them for a long time and they always come to me. I am not really bothered by them, they are comforting to some degree. Here is the thing that i...
  4. Court


    I’m struggling 😭. I’m not Worth anything anymore never was worth anything. Why am I still alive why am I not here anymore. My voices are too much please end already 😭😭😭
  5. Court

    Gone to far to say goodbye

    Afraid of what’s going to happen next - I haven’t self harmed in a week, I know how stupid it sounds of me to say that I do want to. It’s mixed suicidal tendencies and thoughts alongside self harm thoughts and emotions. Reason being, me and my ex spilt up about 3 months ago, we stayed friends...
  6. Tor

    Coping With Suicidal Thoughts 2022-01-08

    Suicidal thoughts deserve coping resources and support. This short pdf guides you through ways to cope, understand and lessen thoughts of suicide.
  7. alixer

    I'm scared that I don't care anymore to get better

    I am in a rut. I took a few months off to care for my father while he recovered from cancer. Now it's time for me to go back to work, but I don't want to. I've wanted to leave for a while now. I have the option to take an immersive 3-month course. I used to look forward to the idea of this...
  8. W

    What's the difference?

    Is wanting to die because the pain is too much the same as wanting to disappear? Sorry if this is not a clear question but I'll try and explain. I just noticed that most people that are suicidal have so much pain that they want an end to it. I for one am not in the same kind of pain that one...
  9. Lastsunset

    Overwhelmed and drowning

    I fucking made my daughter cry. Why why why why did I do that? She needs love more than anything right now and I know this and still was a bitch to her. Mean, couldn't get on her level and didn't even try!! So disgusted. Why do I fret about her emotions then turn around and say/do such selfish...
  10. CoffeeArtist

    I'm not getting better

    My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...
  11. S

    I just keep digging my grave

    I don't really know how to start. i don't even know if some of the things i want to say will break the rules on here. i don't even know if i belong on here. All i do know, i need for this pain to stop one way or the other. i have made three serious attempts on my life; once by <method edit > I...
  12. sisyphus

    Family trouble

    I don't get along well with my family. My entire life I felt like they hated me. They have stopped and became "supportive", stopped the abuse (specially physical) bad everything. But they never noticed I was depressed, they ignored all of my mental health issues and have always put me as lazy...
  13. Booman1990


    I am just so lonely, all I have are a couple of friends, some good some not so good. I don't have a relationship partner and cant seem to get one because I cant drive because I have seizures. So it's hard to meet new people. I try to make friends off phone apps and it works for a little bit...
  14. Rockclimbinggirl


    I have been visualizing various methods more and more lately. I am not sure why. Parts of my life are going well, and parts of it aren't. I am hating intrusive memories more and more. I don't want to carry on like this :(
  15. Rockclimbinggirl

    I do not see a point in trying

    I just do not. I tried to spend as much time as possible asleep this past weekend. Being asleep, gives me a break. I am hating being awake. I cannot get my brain to stop thinking about abuse.
  16. lightning05

    Losing It

    I have been gone for a little while from the forum. Being a full time student and working full time has been quite overwhelming for the past month and I was hoping that being so busy would keep me from suicidal ideation. In reality, nothing will get me out of this depression and hopelessness...
  17. Rockclimbinggirl

    I want to give up

    I do not even know why I just do. Do not want to keep fighting. :(
  18. lightning05

    So sad it hurts

    I've been gone for a while, mostly because work has been crazy and I have a summer class that is killing my free time but also because I was away this past week and a half with two friends on a trip. My trip was wonderful and it was fun to be with my friends like that but I notice that no matter...
  19. Rockclimbinggirl

    I want to give up

    I really just want to give up yet at the same time part of me doesn't. I find myself visualizing various methods, but with no intentions since I don't have the stuff needed for them.
  20. Rockclimbinggirl


    I cannot stand the little girl in me telling me it was my fault. I just cannot live with the guilt of being responsible.