suicidal ideation

  1. G

    Feeling Suicial

    Hi. I don’t feel like my life is going anywhere. Therapy is good but it doesn’t help in a big way. I think my biggest problem is that I really don’t care to be alive. I don’t care if I died tomorrow. I think the time I will take my life will come soon because I don’t think there is a life that I...
  2. G

    Why I dont want to let go of suicidal thoughts

    Hi everyone. I hope today is kind to you where ever you are. I have been feeling quite burned out lately and have had suicidal thoughts. I have had them for a long time and they always come to me. I am not really bothered by them, they are comforting to some degree. Here is the thing that i...
  3. Court


    I’m struggling 😭. I’m not Worth anything anymore never was worth anything. Why am I still alive why am I not here anymore. My voices are too much please end already 😭😭😭
  4. Court

    Gone to far to say goodbye

    Afraid of what’s going to happen next - I haven’t self harmed in a week, I know how stupid it sounds of me to say that I do want to. It’s mixed suicidal tendencies and thoughts alongside self harm thoughts and emotions. Reason being, me and my ex spilt up about 3 months ago, we stayed friends...
  5. Tor

    Coping With Suicidal Thoughts 2022-01-08

    Suicidal thoughts deserve coping resources and support. This short pdf guides you through ways to cope, understand and lessen thoughts of suicide.
  6. alixer

    I'm scared that I don't care anymore to get better

    I am in a rut. I took a few months off to care for my father while he recovered from cancer. Now it's time for me to go back to work, but I don't want to. I've wanted to leave for a while now. I have the option to take an immersive 3-month course. I used to look forward to the idea of this...
  7. W

    What's the difference?

    Is wanting to die because the pain is too much the same as wanting to disappear? Sorry if this is not a clear question but I'll try and explain. I just noticed that most people that are suicidal have so much pain that they want an end to it. I for one am not in the same kind of pain that one...
  8. Lastsunset

    Overwhelmed and drowning

    I fucking made my daughter cry. Why why why why did I do that? She needs love more than anything right now and I know this and still was a bitch to her. Mean, couldn't get on her level and didn't even try!! So disgusted. Why do I fret about her emotions then turn around and say/do such selfish...
  9. CoffeeArtist

    I'm not getting better

    My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...
  10. S

    I just keep digging my grave

    I don't really know how to start. i don't even know if some of the things i want to say will break the rules on here. i don't even know if i belong on here. All i do know, i need for this pain to stop one way or the other. i have made three serious attempts on my life; once by <method edit > I...
  11. sisyphus

    Family trouble

    I don't get along well with my family. My entire life I felt like they hated me. They have stopped and became "supportive", stopped the abuse (specially physical) bad everything. But they never noticed I was depressed, they ignored all of my mental health issues and have always put me as lazy...
  12. Booman1990


    I am just so lonely, all I have are a couple of friends, some good some not so good. I don't have a relationship partner and cant seem to get one because I cant drive because I have seizures. So it's hard to meet new people. I try to make friends off phone apps and it works for a little bit...
  13. Rockclimbinggirl


    I have been visualizing various methods more and more lately. I am not sure why. Parts of my life are going well, and parts of it aren't. I am hating intrusive memories more and more. I don't want to carry on like this :(
  14. Rockclimbinggirl

    I do not see a point in trying

    I just do not. I tried to spend as much time as possible asleep this past weekend. Being asleep, gives me a break. I am hating being awake. I cannot get my brain to stop thinking about abuse.
  15. lightning05

    Losing It

    I have been gone for a little while from the forum. Being a full time student and working full time has been quite overwhelming for the past month and I was hoping that being so busy would keep me from suicidal ideation. In reality, nothing will get me out of this depression and hopelessness...
  16. Rockclimbinggirl

    I want to give up

    I do not even know why I just do. Do not want to keep fighting. :(
  17. lightning05

    So sad it hurts

    I've been gone for a while, mostly because work has been crazy and I have a summer class that is killing my free time but also because I was away this past week and a half with two friends on a trip. My trip was wonderful and it was fun to be with my friends like that but I notice that no matter...
  18. Rockclimbinggirl

    I want to give up

    I really just want to give up yet at the same time part of me doesn't. I find myself visualizing various methods, but with no intentions since I don't have the stuff needed for them.
  19. Rockclimbinggirl


    I cannot stand the little girl in me telling me it was my fault. I just cannot live with the guilt of being responsible.
  20. Rockclimbinggirl

    Wanting to harm myself at the thought of going home

    Just thinking about going home has increased my suicidal ideations and is making me want to self harm. Yet I still sort of want to go home. I know that I need to do what is best for me but at the moment it seems like I wont. I do not really know why, is this all due to self destruction.