Yep, parents are pretty good at screwing their kids up most of the time. Then we feel we are to blame for their mistakes. I mean, just how confukted is that? You are not alone in that respect RCG.
I hope it all retreats to the back of your memory bank where you left it and stays there this time. Its one thing I am wary about with therapy, sometimes, it can open up some boxes that are better left closed. I digress, sorry.
Hugs, hope the day improves at some point.