So I'm going into self destruct mode. Things are bad with family college and friends. I'm not working, I have no motivation and this is my final year before I go to uni. I'm constantly arguing with my family. And I'm sleeping with loads of boys. I hurt someone I really care about by sleeping with someone else. I don't really know how to stop everyone thinks I'm a slag but I just want someone to love me. I told my ex that I was in love with him still and he mocked me. He's done me so wrong in the past. E.g. Posting my nudes in group chats and on social media. I'm insecure and alone suicide seems the only escape