I'm back again after a while, hi i hope everyone's doing well, I'll try to summarize my situation and please help me if you been in similar situation or if you have an idea, cuz I'm kind desperate...
This is about a relationship I've been in for the past year, I met a girl back in Dec 2019 before everything went wrong in the world, we got close really fast, we had a lot of trouble in the road, we broke up many times... over short periods and the longest one was 2 weeks after about 3 months in our relationship, we broke up again on August 2020 and she blocked me (I posted about it before) she unblocked me about a month later (I noticed it idk when) I texted her on October 2020 asking how she's doing and stuff, she said she still loved me and we got back together on October the 15th, things were going good but for some reason we keep getting into fights that I don't even understand?
I told her back in October i wouldn't mind being friends but she was adamant that she still loved me and I won't lie i still had feelings, but I'm not sure if she actually loves me honestly, after a year of that relationship stuff I always felt like i was in an unknown place, sometimes i would really feel she loved me while other times it was plain dull and empty.
On Jan 25th we fought again and i was like i had enough because she really stirs fights out of nothing and it's affecting my mental health really bad, but again I don't feel well when we're apart either.
Our intimate relationship was good on the other hand, she said she was okay with "Being friends with benefits" instead of completely breaking up, I didn't know how or what to feel tbh
I zoned out for 2 days and didn't text her back and when i texted back she started getting mad and saying that i ghosted her but i just needed space to know how to feel and i just told her off because I didn't HAVE to reply to her since it wasn't even a relationship anymore. Now she unfriended me (Didn't block me like last time) but she didn't delete my number, anyways, this all happened 1 month ago and we haven't spoken since, what am i supposed to do now? It feels like she's always on my mind and i hate it
Do i keep my space and move on? Or do i text her and apologize for ghosting and express my feelings? This whole thing feels toxic and I am probably better off but I got exams in a couple of days and it feels like my life is on hold, someone told me here that If i'm not okay on my own then i won't be okay when i'm in a relationship and i agree, but I'm so depressed. You probably don't know how much it means to me but that relationship meant a lot even though it feels like she doesn't love me as much as i love her.
Sometimes i have to hold back on my love because of her negligence. I know this is not healthy but again I don't know what to do that's why i'm asking for your advice, put yourself in my shoes for a moment, 1 year relationship that felt special and different from other relationships, it is toxic and I'm well aware of that but i am depressed, it's already been a month and i don't feel like i'm over it. Will i move on if i stay distant? I keep checking up on her stuff tho and maybe that's what's keeping me attached, just please tell me what to do, thank you.
This is about a relationship I've been in for the past year, I met a girl back in Dec 2019 before everything went wrong in the world, we got close really fast, we had a lot of trouble in the road, we broke up many times... over short periods and the longest one was 2 weeks after about 3 months in our relationship, we broke up again on August 2020 and she blocked me (I posted about it before) she unblocked me about a month later (I noticed it idk when) I texted her on October 2020 asking how she's doing and stuff, she said she still loved me and we got back together on October the 15th, things were going good but for some reason we keep getting into fights that I don't even understand?
I told her back in October i wouldn't mind being friends but she was adamant that she still loved me and I won't lie i still had feelings, but I'm not sure if she actually loves me honestly, after a year of that relationship stuff I always felt like i was in an unknown place, sometimes i would really feel she loved me while other times it was plain dull and empty.
On Jan 25th we fought again and i was like i had enough because she really stirs fights out of nothing and it's affecting my mental health really bad, but again I don't feel well when we're apart either.
Our intimate relationship was good on the other hand, she said she was okay with "Being friends with benefits" instead of completely breaking up, I didn't know how or what to feel tbh
I zoned out for 2 days and didn't text her back and when i texted back she started getting mad and saying that i ghosted her but i just needed space to know how to feel and i just told her off because I didn't HAVE to reply to her since it wasn't even a relationship anymore. Now she unfriended me (Didn't block me like last time) but she didn't delete my number, anyways, this all happened 1 month ago and we haven't spoken since, what am i supposed to do now? It feels like she's always on my mind and i hate it
Do i keep my space and move on? Or do i text her and apologize for ghosting and express my feelings? This whole thing feels toxic and I am probably better off but I got exams in a couple of days and it feels like my life is on hold, someone told me here that If i'm not okay on my own then i won't be okay when i'm in a relationship and i agree, but I'm so depressed. You probably don't know how much it means to me but that relationship meant a lot even though it feels like she doesn't love me as much as i love her.
Sometimes i have to hold back on my love because of her negligence. I know this is not healthy but again I don't know what to do that's why i'm asking for your advice, put yourself in my shoes for a moment, 1 year relationship that felt special and different from other relationships, it is toxic and I'm well aware of that but i am depressed, it's already been a month and i don't feel like i'm over it. Will i move on if i stay distant? I keep checking up on her stuff tho and maybe that's what's keeping me attached, just please tell me what to do, thank you.
