suicidal feelings

I have a appointment to the therapist on July 5 and I'm thi kink of telling him just if bad my thoughts of suicide has gotten and how easy it would be for me to succeed in it. The thing is, I know it'll lead to me being put in a hospital but at the same time I sort of feel like I should go. I've...

I really just want to give up yet at the same time part of me doesn't. I find myself visualizing various methods, but with no intentions since I don't have the stuff needed for them.

I cannot stand the little girl in me telling me it was my fault. I just cannot live with the guilt of being responsible.

Just thinking about going home has increased my suicidal ideations and is making me want to self harm. Yet I still sort of want to go home. I know that I need to do what is best for me but at the moment it seems like I wont. I do not really know why, is this all due to self destruction.

I just found out that my dad's uncle passed away. My parents want me to come home for a few days for the funeral. I do not know if I am ready to go home. My parents would want to talk to me and there are things that I really do not want to tell them. Just thinking about my parents coming to...

I cannot deal with stuff. I don't want things to be true, yet I know they are. I can't stand being here while knowing that stuff happened.

I apologise to all if this is triggering and for the length of this post, but this has been something that has been playing on my mind for a long time and I really feel like I need to discuss it to get it out of my system. I have suffered with suicidal ideation many times over the past 12 or so...

I am done. I want to give up.

So lately especially I've been taking extreme and quite sudden turns for the worst, lasting even just a day. And then the next day I'll be totally fine and positive. I've never been to see a professional about the way I behave... But I'm starting to believe there must be an explanation for the...

Is it okay to wanting to sleep forever? Is it selfish? Is it okay to leave everything in this life just like this? Is it okay to left my parents and siblings like this? Will my family and my best friends disappointed and sad when they find me asleep later? I kept asking myself that whenever i...

It's so ironic when someone who picked you up from misery, ended up breaking you. That's why i hate living. It's all about being picked up and destroyed by others. And feelings, i hate them. I don't want to feel a thing. I wonder how's it like to be numb from everything. I barely know what...