suicidal thoughts

My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...

No friends. That's right, none. I am not joking or exaggerating in the least bit when I say this. People don't dare to be around me. All throughout middle and high school, everyone on campus has always put in their best effort to stay away from me. I've also never had a GF. All around me, I seem...

I am a failure and a disappointment, I am just living here to waste my family's resources. I likely will never find a job. Nor I will ever love someone or be loved by someone. My parents hate me and I hate myself. I don't see why I should continue. I'll never be happy. I'll never make another...

I almost killed myself last year and I stopped myself last minute. I wish I would’ve pulled through and done it but at the same time I’m glad I didn’t. I love my family so much but I hate my life and the choices I’ve made. I would make another attempt but my family would mourn me and I’d never...

the person is my father, and I’m so scared. This is my first time posting here, after this forum was recommended to me by someone on another forum I visit. I have been in such a desperate frame of mind for the longest time, and I would give anything for therapy, but I have no health insurance...

Give me a reason to live through today. Maybe something that can get me through this week when the feeling should, hopefully, become more bearable. It can be anything. Something that makes you want to live, something good, something worth living for. Just not family related.

It's confusing. The feeling that I shouldn't be here, shouldn't be alive. I screwed up my fate, like straying off the path in the woods. Now I'm lost, stumbling through life and can't find a path to walk along. When I was young, maybe only 12, I was suicidal. I was worried that dying would be...

hey, it's been a long time since I've checked this forum but I'm feeling pretty bad so (excuse any english mistakes as it is not my first language) okay, so my point is I just don't feel like living, I mean I never asked for it, I've just been thrown in a mercyless world and expected to work my...

I've been feelin especially suicidal lately mostly due to medical problems. It's hard that I've worked on this crap for so long and finally, finally found the right mix of meds to help me and now I'm forced back into this endless cycle of crap. I'm just so tired. This next bit isn't terribly...

Hi everyone, I thought I'd ask for some opinions: I am depressed and I think about suicide quite a bit. I've decided how I would attempt it and think about how it would feel. But I don't think I'd actually go through with it. Should I talk to someone or just wait for it to pass? I haven't told...

Hello, i'm in a situation where me and bf are both depressed and suicidal, we feel sometimes okay but mostly bad. when he is feeling bad he drinks and smokes a lot. we live in different countries, he is in poland. when he gets bad i try to be as supportive and understanding as i can, he...

My thoughts are going wild. My anxiety is high. My thoughts gravitate towards SH and suicidal urges. They came on strong this time. Its only been 3 days since my anxiety has peaked and stayed peaked. But its like the thoights are mpre freauents stronger. I have a hard time denying them. I gave...

It is on my mind again. Thoughts are stronger. It seem like a good solution to end the pain, yet I know it is not. So tired of coping.

Nothing much to say except the suicidal ideation is back with a vengeance. I don't have any desire to act on these thoughts but they are just in my head telling me everything would be okay if I was just dead and gone.

Feeling so ashamed about abuse. Just want to die. :(

So I guess I am the first one to post in this section. Just trying to figure out how to juggle work, school, mental health, and the rest of life. Things like meal planning. I am going grocery shopping tomorrow. I have no veggies or fruits left. Not even onions :p

Suicidal thoughts are strong. Just want them to stop coming back. Do not even know why I want to, I just do.

Ugh. Hate what I am remembering right now. Mom hitting herself and calling herself stupid. Daring me to agree. Feeling responsible for it. For all the stuff mom hates about her life. WTF. Wish this would all go away.

I do not even know why I just do. Do not want to keep fighting. :(

Things are starting to sort of go in the right direction yet I still wish I could disappear.