depression

People's doubt and hatred towards me has caused me so much pain. I thought people would care at some point. I pray all the time for the anger to be taken away at how people have acted towards me. First it was my mom and her husband who mistreated me, and then it spread to people outside my...

This is quite difficult for me to write about, and im probably overreacting, like when you google your cold symptoms and think you're dying of some terrible disease. But basically im really scared i might develop schizophrenia. "develope" is a weird word, but im 20 and i know that it takes a...

I was on the way out this past June when someone saved me. Someone who had their own problems but to me they were a beautiful human being and I loved them. They told me wonderful things, they became my reason for living. Now over the last few weeks they have withdrawn into their own world and I...

I am trying to pull myself out of an emotional funk and have decided to give out some food to people. I plan to give it to people through street outreach. I need a good name for my plan and I can't think of one. I was thinking something related to unicorns but the ideas came out all wrong. I...

I was recovering but I noticed that 2017 has been a whole down year. I went spiraling back again to my worst of moments and lately it has reached again the peak that leads to the end. But the end is now a problem that it wasn't before: I used to be alone, but while I was recovering, I had to...

i always say when I'm skinny or lose more weight I will get help and go to therapy because I don't deserve to get help if I'm fat. I don't deserve to get better because I have never attempted suicide (I want to kill myself but I'm a fucking pussy) and am not depressed or suicidal enough. I don't...

I need warm vibes or thoughts or what ever belief system people have, to send my way. I have grand jury this Wednesday, for a day. I am on the jury and it is my fifth day serving this year. It is very painful to me and I tried to find my story on my previous post to add this to it, but I will...

I've been taking citalopram for about 7 months now, and I'm really starting to struggle with the effects from drinking alcohol. I'm at University so naturally my life involves getting fairly drunk every now and then, which i still enjoy but sometimes i get into pretty bad states. I used to be...

I feel like I am just getting worse. I was sexually abused by my mom's ex husband while I was growing up. I did report it within the statute of limitations but it was "he said, she said" (according to law enforcement.) I wanted to establish a good life for myself out in the world. I was engaged...

I hope that people do have good experiences with therapists. I went for years and to groups also and tried to find someone who specialized in what I had suffered through. I thought the therapists were nasty and I honestly felt suicidal every day. A therapist would just say things like "abuse...

I went to a funeral held on a college campus yesterday for someone/ a manager who died recently (from a job that I have just resigned from.) It was for both the person I knew, who died from a random heart issue and also for a young man who died from a suicide. There were a lot of people there...

It’s funny how for a couple months I feel ok. Depression and suicidal thoughts are there but their on the back burner and things are ok! then I’ll start having fun or go somewhere exciting that I’ve been looking forward to (Like for the past three days I’ve been going to a comic con) Then I wake...

I got back from a 3 day comic con yesterday and it dawned on my how most of my fellow nerds there had friends and significant others. Basically all I have is my cousin and mother and those don’t count as friends in my opinion. It just sucks coming home and realizing how very alone I really am...

When I think I am feeling better in life, that small voice the back of my head tells me otherwise. It tells me how shit I am and that no one cares for me. My husband works on the road, so we don't get to talk often. When we do talk on the phone -were not even talking - he completely ignores me...

Hi everyone hope your doing well. I'm not today. Everyone says its ok to go through the motions of depression but I hate it. I hate living with this parasite that takes over my brain. I try my hardest to be a good hearted person to put others before myself but why is it no one would ever do what...

I am sad again and I wish I could fix this. I feel so ashamed by how people have treated me.

My ex:mad: My boyfriend :) My best friend at home My mum My close friend at Uni A few months ago this was zeroooo, until i was forced to deal with it when my ex found out about it. After that it was really hard to open up to people and trust them, but now I think that I'm starting to overcome...

I met this guy a little over a year ago for the second time. I knew him when we worked together 3 years before. I had moved cities. We work in the same company and he was on an official visit. Since he was a friend from way back I asked him out for a friendly drink. He is much older than me and...

Like wasn't enough to loose my brother to suicide,to go through this hellish grief depression and anxiety and later have my father diagnosed with Leukemia! no wasn't enough.! Now the banks threatening to take our property,our job our home and restaurant the only source of income we have,if we...

It's been a while since I've been on this site but now I feel the need of support once again. I've lived with depression for five-six years now and the last two I've developed anxiety but I think I've been doing well despite this so far. Now I've been going to university for a bit over a...