depression

I understand that there's no way to go back to the past. But I am deeply ashamed of my foolish behaviors when my depression ruined my mind. At the end of my last few school year, I've lost my control and treated others in a very arrogant and not nice way. When I pretended to be so selfish that I...

Hello everyone. Not sure if I should post this here or in the « I have a question » section. I’ve been having a lot of dilemmas recently and I may go job hunting again later this year. Like most people, I assume, I hate interviews, and I hate even more the fact that in my field it takes between...

I am curious as to what other users on this forum think about the hikikomori phenomenon in Japan? For those who don't know hikikomori is a social condition caused by a group of symptoms that result in the affected individual withdrawing from society and living in isolation in their...

Hello this is only my second thread on this site and i feel like i need to vent this is probably the most appropriate place to do so so i decided to make a thread here. Anyway i want to start off by saying that i hate the western Neet and Hikikomori communities that exist on the internet why...

Hello i'm new here and i am a bit scared to post here but here it goes i am 25 years old and have been living as a hikikomori for about 2 years now for those who don't know hikikomori is a social condition in which the affected individual isolates themselves from society at home in their room...

My parents think that I am getting better, nearing the end of depression, but little do they know how I am still suicidal. I can't tell them because they'll be hurt yet again and the entire cycle of guilt would be repeated. Meds are working, undoubtedly, but now that my self-written book is...

I wanted to post "how I feel today" but it got a little longer than usual and actually reflects how I feel every day despite everything I write daily in that thread. Sad, alone, scared, lost, empty ... I just don't see how it can ever get better. It can only get worse. I feel like I'm hanging on...

I am struggling because of major depressive disorder, anxiety, hypomania, chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. I dread every day and cannot find purpose. I feel tremendous guilt and worthlessness because I am not working and on disability. I have five more years until I can get on full...

No friends. That's right, none. I am not joking or exaggerating in the least bit when I say this. People don't dare to be around me. All throughout middle and high school, everyone on campus has always put in their best effort to stay away from me. I've also never had a GF. All around me, I seem...

I always do try to contain such negative feelings within. I wasn't even in the site for awhile. I tried to do what I loved again and for some time, I actually felt a little alive. But like always, there has to be a price for that quick happiness. Now I'm back to square one again. Thinking about...

I feel so trapped and hopeless. I've been this way for years. I'm stuck living with my mum and her aggressive partner and it's killing me inside. He has extreme anger issues just like my father. I feel like a naughty child when in fact I'm a 24-year-old woman with a Masters degree from a great...

I am a failure and a disappointment, I am just living here to waste my family's resources. I likely will never find a job. Nor I will ever love someone or be loved by someone. My parents hate me and I hate myself. I don't see why I should continue. I'll never be happy. I'll never make another...

This is pretty long so brace yourselves... My mother has chronic glomerulitis and has been undergoing hemodialysis for 8 years now. I just recently graduated last June and had all kinds of plans for myself. Then, my mother's condition started to worsen and we found out that she has sepsis due to...

I don't know why, but almost my whole family acts as if they hate me. My Mom constantly says she hates me, but treats me like a daughter the next day. It doesn't help that she drinks, which may be the main factor since she acts like herself when she is sober. But she has had her days when she...

I've recently been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder. For those who aren't aware of the differences between Bipolar 1 & 2, here's the wiki: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_II_disorder I'd previously been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder with acute...

I almost killed myself last year and I stopped myself last minute. I wish I would’ve pulled through and done it but at the same time I’m glad I didn’t. I love my family so much but I hate my life and the choices I’ve made. I would make another attempt but my family would mourn me and I’d never...

My grandmother had a stroke in February of this year. The day before that I found out my girlfriend had cheated on me and slept with someone. After we break up she starts dating a new guy and she doesn't know his last name. I constantly saw her in school with him, he was usually kissing her and...

i don’t really know how to explain this. I don’t really know where to start. I guess by saying that I know with 100% certainty that I am so so in love with my boyfriend and I know he loves me and I could gush about him forever. But when I’m feeling particularly depressed or dissociative all...

Hello Guys I haven't been here for some time now, it is good to be back fortunately I am not here seeking help for myself, I have a friend who is in clinical depression and have a serious hearth disease. She had this disease for a long time and combined with depression it has become life...

This might become a long rant but I feel like I need to put it down somwhere if only to sort out my thoughts yet again. A bit about me. I've been living with depression since I was about 16-17 years old. I'm 22 today. It's been some fiercely tough years but I believe I've tried my best at...