depression

This might become a long rant but I feel like I need to put it down somwhere if only to sort out my thoughts yet again. A bit about me. I've been living with depression since I was about 16-17 years old. I'm 22 today. It's been some fiercely tough years but I believe I've tried my best at...

I'm not really sure how to post this. I guess I'll start by saying I made the monumentally stupid decision to drop my employer's health coverage last year. I was depressed (or more depressed than usual) about debt and household expenses, and in my depressed state, decided to drop coverage during...

Hello, I'm hoping that someone could give me some advice please. I regularly chat via email to a young man in the USA, we met online over a year ago on another mental health forum when I was suffering quite badly from anxiety and he had his own mental health problems. We just support each other...

I don't really know how to start. i don't even know if some of the things i want to say will break the rules on here. i don't even know if i belong on here. All i do know, i need for this pain to stop one way or the other. i have made three serious attempts on my life; once by <method edit > I...

I have anxiety since few years ago. I consulted to various counselors, though right now I'm not seeing any as I don't like my current counselor (I moved places that's why I have a new one). Aside from my counselors and few friends, not many people know I have anxiety since it's a bit difficult...

Wow, it really has been a while since I've made a contribution to SF. And during that time a lot of things have dramatically changed. However, some of it hasn't been for the better. As time has gone on, as I have made new friends (albeit online ones), and tried to become more social and in...

Tonight is one of these nights where very strong intentions and thoughts about killing myself are returning. In my mind i'm hanging around a lot in my past, in my future, the self i would like to be and the self that i am. I have just realized too how strong these moods correlate with my life...

Hello dear forum members, From time to time again i have days/nights where everything i wanna be is dead. Sometimes this feeling is so strong that if i would have <mod edit - method>but anyways my will to cease to exist is sometimes just unnaturally strong mixed with deep depressions about my...

I've been stuck in a bipolar low since Thursday night. I was manic because my artwork and spoken word were being featured at a show at the university I used to attend. I was a star, I was on top of the world, I felt like god was inside me. Now I'm just really numb and I want to <mod edit -...

I suffer from ptsd as a result of a sexual assault when I was 11 and sexual abuse from my ex when I was 17. After I left him I began a spree of sexual deviance. As a form of "reacting" to my traumas I slept with 5 guys in 2 years and I feel supremely ashamed of myself. I am now in a very good...

2 of my friends are currently mad at me and and aren't talking with me. One is my roommate which makes it really hard. I'm really struggling and need help from my friends though but since their mad at me I feel like I can't bring my feelings of depression and thoughts of suicide up to them...

Okay, so I was thinking the other day about how everyone hates Frodo in Lord of The Rings, and that he's actually one of my favourite characters. Weird thought i know, but don't worry its gonna go somewhere. Anyway, so this lead me to thinking all about how i think i relate to Frodo cos he's...

Feel free to ignore this. I just HAVE to vent before my mind blows... I understand no one can give advice on that and I am sorry haha I just needed to pour it all out of my chest... __________ It can only get harder. It is downhill from now on. I gave up on all of my college duties. And I am...

I work in an office with 6 other women, which I find unfortunate because women are a little more gossipy and back-staby than men; I think some testosterone would do us a lot of good, truth be told. There are 2 directors who, quite frankly, suck at their job. Some of it is due to incompetence and...

Hello, sorry for my bad English. I am a 23 year old boy, who have been depressed and suicidal for some time now (read my other thread). The last couple of months i have started to look for answers and truth about life and the essence of who i am. I sometimes started to get this feeling that we...

I'm new to this kind of thing, but I feel like I should start getting help. Nowadays I feel empty, almost deflated. Its like a constant tiredness that I can't seem to get rid of no matter what I do, I've tried drawing, music and exercise to see if that would help with it and so far nothing has...

by David Whitehead a really inspiring and mind refreshing talk on depression. One of my fav teachers. Check out some of his other vids as well!

After struggling through my first year at uni and nearly failing, then convincing myself i can get better and just work harder in my second year i've worn myself out sooooo much and feel worse than ever and know that i'm jst gonna fail this year if i carry on. And i'm scared if i try and carry...

the person is my father, and I’m so scared. This is my first time posting here, after this forum was recommended to me by someone on another forum I visit. I have been in such a desperate frame of mind for the longest time, and I would give anything for therapy, but I have no health insurance...

Hello all I am currently in a weird situation. I am in a relationship and I need help figuring out how to stop sabotaging it. I really love this guy that I am with, but I have no self worth and I don't feel like anyone could love me and actually want to be with me. I keep asking him why and...